This memory from my eternal existence, what I am going to share with you in this post comes from the time when I actually wasn`t yet incarnated(1) into flesh of
my psychical body.
Somewhere in midst of my journey of faith with
the Lord, after having experiencing God giving visions to me and when I noticed more details like unfolding later in my earthly mind, I began to understood that my spirit being - my real self- could remember much more from those visions, to where Lord had taken me several times in as He had wanted to do it. So I believe that my spirit being could remember more that my mind can comprehend or realize about of my pre-existence state in Heaven. I noticed also that usually it took time when my earthly mind could crasp those things and also all of this memory what i am going to soon share and what took place in heavenly realm before my decision to
incarnate according to earthly time frame somewhere in beginning of year of 1984 which is my earthly birth year. Lord had not revealed full earthly date of this experience to me but I myself that thought that as I was born in October then my earthly body should conceived somewhere in January 1984.
As it had unfolded piece by piece under leading spirit of God of Almighty then I do not know yet fully all of those details of why just this experience He had chosen to bring into my rememberance but somehow just this
memory from that time in this heavenly realm is remained so clearly into my mind too like it had happened
yesterday.
It started from there that I realized that I as spiritual being, was in Heaven and I noticed that I was looking down to the earth from Tribune of Ecclestical cloud (See Heb 12:1) where I was standing. Different authors had compared this place with symbol of Amphy theatre but it reminded rather some balcony which is builded out from side of Rock.
Then I understood that I had given the opportunity to look upon the one couple, who will become in
future my mom and dad and somehow this opportunity had given to me for multiple of times before also and now there was again time when I was looking at them.
But I clearly remember that feeling of how I was
still doubting in making incarnation to the Earth. In my mind I was thinking, do I have to do it and do I really want to incarnate into the earth and just into that family. Yes somehow I was excited to go there and somehow I had a wish to try it but still it seemed all to be complicated.
For that moment of looking there, I had already got
knew and seen, what had happened to that baby ( my earthly half brother who encouraged me), who had been in body of
my future mom several years before that time when my earthly birth will take place. Somehow already in there, in that spiritual realm I had gotten knew that the reason why my mom decided to abort that baby, was her uncertain issues with her living
place. She were living in her aunt`s place and she was afraid of kicked out
because of keeping the baby and also because of her bad financial state at that
time.
In my mind, I knew for sure that that I didn`t wanted to risk with that same thing will happen with me too. I was already there in Heavenly realm this kind of person, who was wanting that things might be organized and made perfectly.
I
don`t remember exact moment of how I got know in Heavenly realm that boy who was my aborted earthly half brother. I quess that
while he came back to Heaven, soon
after that I had privileged to get know him or it might happen also after that when I had given opportunity to see this family. I would like to call him Martin.
At
one of those doubting reflecting times, when I had again looked
my future mom and dad and little bit worrying
in my mind about my birthing into this
world as I had been afraid of got aborted too as my aborted
earthly half brother. I do not know how it exactly is but in
heaven realm your thoughts can have seen to other saints around you.Also there is possible to
talk thru thoughts as additional to talk with words.
So at that moment Martin came to me and said :” Sissy, Don`t
worry! It will not happen with you as it
happened with me.” and thru that saying, he gave to me somekind of understanding in thought level that Our Creator of Heaven and
Earth, Father God Almighty have already all under His control. Actually then, when Martin called me according
to that earthly way sissy ( short
version of word sister) sounded to me very strange but I knew that it have to
get familiar to me.
And
in reality I didn`t knew that, how he knew that but I quess that he know about it because of eternal wisdom what was already taught by angels to him. Aborted babies are taken under care of Our Father God and they are grow up by angels who also teach them what they need to know according to the their mature level. As it is said in book of Jeremiah in Bible that " He knows the plans that He have for us" (Jer 29:11) so He knows also what all those aborted little ones needs.
But those
words of encouragement helped me a lot. Actually
they gave to me boldness to make this little bit hard decision. This decision to incarnate was hard because it means to me that, I as spiritual being had leave from the safety of Heavenly Realms for some time ( in Heaven realm the measurement of time is different from earthly understanding of time), ie I had to
leave from my real Home for some time – and to incarnate into this earth and
get captured into earthly body. But yes
I took that risk and it was worth for that.
Now, you may think in your mind that how I remember those things so deeply. Lord started to bring it back from my spirit
into my mind step by step using different means for that. Some part of that
memory what I shared with you before, came to my physical mind, while I was reading one of the David Seamands
books Putting down childish things, where
he talks about pre-birth experiences.
But more of it raised up after one very strange prayer of
one young man of God, who prayed over me at 28th April 2011 this
way:
More pressure God, more innermost pressure from the deepest part, from the
destiny that You spoke, Father. Father I ask You that You bring forth the whisper when you whispered their
destiny before they were born into the air. I speak out that this innermost
pressure of the deepest parts of Your people. Father that whispering of Your
voice in Heaven where You said that now I want that she will come and he will come and this
person will come called by name. Father, this destiny that You had wombed into
them, I speak out that this whispering
becomes now a call.
When I heard
him mentioning that thing of how Lord had called persons by their name, it
brought back to my mind details of that story
of how Lord started lead me into this
earth by saying to the my mom`s midwife that He wants me to remain live.
At that prayer time actually, when this young man of God was praying over me those words, what happened with me was quite interesting. In that meeting I was standing, but when he came to me
and touched my right hand, what I had
layed on my belly, firstly I fell on the chair behind me. Then he put his hand on my right hand again and then I felt soft and lovely but
also deep lightning pierced me from up to down.
It was very strange spiritual experience but at same time good
experience and after that came more and more clearly into my mind those things
concerning my birth and how hand of God had been behind that what you may read
in future.
Notes:
1. Incarnate ie coming into flesh. We are spirit being who "come into flesh" when our physical body starts to develop in our earthly mom`s body.
